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Illyria Drabbles: Hollow Victory & I'm A Loser Baby - Words in the Heroes' Tongue
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Illyria Drabbles: Hollow Victory & I'm A Loser Baby
Here are the next two parts of my post-NFA Illyria drabble/ficlet series. Previous parts are HERE. 250 words and 100 words, PG.


Hollow Victory


“I thought at first this was a set-up, and you were trying to turn us against each other,” said the female who had arrived with Willow and Faith. A piece of metal transfixed her tongue. “Only, why would you bother? You could have just put your fist through Giles’ face before anybody could have stopped you. Hell, you beat four Slayers at once and one of them was Vi. And you’re not gloating. Just hurting.”

“Yes, I hurt,” Illyria confirmed. “I did not know this feeling called ‘grief’ in my past life. It consumes me. I stand as if on the brink of an abyss, on the verge of falling, and I know not how to retreat to solid ground.” She focused her gaze upon Giles. “I had hoped that forcing you to acknowledge your guilt would ease my pain. It does not.”

The warrior Vi laid a hand upon Illyria’s shoulder. “Give it some time. It won’t always be this bad, Fred, uh, Illyria.” Illyria recognized that the gesture was intended to give comfort. It did not achieve that aim.

“If an apology from me would help, well, you have that unreservedly,” Giles said. “I made a terrible error of judgment. I know that no apology can make up for the consequences of that error…”

“If you’re lucky Willow might start speaking to you again sometime in the next year, Giles,” the metal-tongued one said, “and Faith probably isn’t going to kill you. I’m not so sure about Buffy.”




I’m A Loser Baby


A minion attempted to bestow a cup of hot liquid upon Illyria. Those crazy Brits think a cup of tea is the answer to everything… Illyria recoiled. Those were thoughts from the shell, coming to her unbidden, undesired. She fled from the room.

Sounds led her to Faith. The Slayer had set aside her weapon and was using hands and feet to smite a sand-filled bag. She turned as Illyria approached. “So, Fred, Illyria, whatever,” said Faith, “just what the hell are we supposed to do with you?”

Illyria gestured toward the Slayer weapon. “I want you to kill me.”

Continued in ‘Death Is Your Gift’

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Current Music: Beck, 'Loser'

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evilawyer From: evilawyer Date: February 21st, 2009 03:17 am (UTC) (Link)
I know not how to retreat to solid ground.
Illyria admitting, even this indirectly, that she'd retreat from something? This God-King is hurting, she is.

Suicide by Faith. Some might think that's not at all a bad way to go. Loving this. Is it hard to write in such small snippets? I don't think I've ever asked, oh Great King of Drabbles? ***bows before you in awe and respect***
evilawyer From: evilawyer Date: February 21st, 2009 03:19 am (UTC) (Link)
And there wasn't supposed to be a question mark after Great King of Drabbles. And it's not my subconscious coming to the fore. It's my aching, arthritis-onset hands --- getting old sucks bigtime.
speakr2customrs From: speakr2customrs Date: February 21st, 2009 03:29 am (UTC) (Link)
getting old sucks bigtime.

It is, however, generally regarded as being better than the alternative.
evilawyer From: evilawyer Date: February 21st, 2009 03:31 am (UTC) (Link)
Generally, yes.
speakr2customrs From: speakr2customrs Date: February 21st, 2009 03:29 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you!

Yes, it is hard, but it's a very useful exercise. You have to be utterly ruthless about trimming out anything that doesn't directly serve the story and achieve the maximum effect from each word.
evilawyer From: evilawyer Date: February 21st, 2009 03:32 am (UTC) (Link)
I don't think I could do it. Certainly not as prolifically as you do.
ozma914 From: ozma914 Date: February 23rd, 2009 10:24 am (UTC) (Link)
No way could I do this in a series of snippets; if I'd written the same story it would be 10,000 words, by now. I stand in awe of the ability to write Big Stories short like this.
pfeifferpack From: pfeifferpack Date: February 21st, 2009 04:24 am (UTC) (Link)
Chillingly sad. Illyria has never fit. The world filled with worshipers were eons gone by the time of his/her release and she is in a form too fragile to contain her power (not to mention all those pesky human emotions she got via Fred). The tiny bit of comfort she had was the purpose she found with Angel and his crew....and the affection she felt for her pet.....now they are as gone as Wesley. Illyria would not wish to exist in such a world, in such a form.

I wonder how they will respond to her request given their knee jerk belief that living is the preferred outcome for everyone (save those singled out to be Slain as part of the "sacred calling"). Illyria and her/his request will present quite the moral dilema no doubt.

Kennedy was actually not annoying (how did you do that?). While I always liked the actress(both beautiful and talented IMHO)...I hated the character.

Just superb.

Kathleen
speakr2customrs From: speakr2customrs Date: February 21st, 2009 05:31 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you!

Kennedy was even less annoying in the original version, where I had her reflecting on her own guilt over Chloe's suicide, but I wanted that section to be 250 words and so that part had to go.
ffutures From: ffutures Date: February 21st, 2009 10:58 am (UTC) (Link)
Really can't see Faith agreeing to that, somehow.
speakr2customrs From: speakr2customrs Date: February 21st, 2009 11:51 am (UTC) (Link)
She's certainly not going to be dancing for joy at the prospect, that's for sure.
gillo From: gillo Date: February 21st, 2009 12:27 pm (UTC) (Link)
Fascinating - giving Faith a moral quandary she can't just blow off.

The sheer desolation of Illyria is superbly presented.
speakr2customrs From: speakr2customrs Date: February 22nd, 2009 10:03 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you!
desdemonaspace From: desdemonaspace Date: February 21st, 2009 04:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
Well, you've made me cry. I never thought I'd have so much pity for Illyria. But yours...

**sob**
speakr2customrs From: speakr2customrs Date: February 22nd, 2009 10:23 am (UTC) (Link)
I can't watch Illyria's scenes in the final few minutes of 'Not Fade Away' without crying for her.

Thank you!
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 22nd, 2009 01:05 am (UTC) (Link)
Sorry to have missed these earlier, but I've caught up now. Heartbreaking and very good. I agree, you are king of drabbles.
appomattoxco From: appomattoxco Date: February 22nd, 2009 01:08 am (UTC) (Link)
That was me. I log logged out somehow.
speakr2customrs From: speakr2customrs Date: February 22nd, 2009 10:24 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you! Of course usually my drabbles are lead-ins to excruciating puns but occasionally I like to use them for something more serious.
ayinhara From: ayinhara Date: February 22nd, 2009 05:29 pm (UTC) (Link)
Your version of Illyria is quite convincing.
speakr2customrs From: speakr2customrs Date: February 22nd, 2009 09:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank you.
brunettepet From: brunettepet Date: March 3rd, 2009 10:21 pm (UTC) (Link)
Wonderful Illyria voice here: I stand as if on the brink of an abyss, on the verge of falling, and I know not how to retreat to solid ground. The pain of her loss is captured beautifully. Death would seem a blessing.
speakr2customrs From: speakr2customrs Date: March 3rd, 2009 11:04 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank you!
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